My Take – Last Photo for November

I just happened upon this challenge/prompt. Thank you bushboys world.

The rules are simple:
1. Post the last photo on your SD card or last photo on your phone for the 30th October.
2. No editing – who cares if it is out of focus, not framed as you would like or the subject matter didn’t cooperate.
3. You don’t have to have any explanations, just the photo will do
4. Create a Pingback to this post or link in the comments
5. Tag “The Last Photo” or #LastOnTheCard

I had erased my card earlier today, but thanks to iCloud and sharing photos across devices, I do have the photo (wish I had deleted it.

From my Canon Rebel SL1 (see the crow?)

From my iPhone SE (generation 2)

~RuthScribbles

Depression sucks-a Vent

Or maybe it is not depression

Is it boredom?

Or is it low self esteem?

Am I too worried about what people will think?

i.e. “She is dark all the time,” “don’t talk politics,” “why can’t she be happy?” “Smile already!” “I know that’s hard, BUT……” “Don’t constantly talk about the past, the past is the past.” “especially don’t talk about anti-racism.”

I have heard these statements applied to other people and to me. These statements are triggers. And I never know when one will stick and send me downward. I really try not to go “down,” but if I am, I need to express it to get out of it.

I came to WordPress to just write what I wanted to without a care about what others thought. And now I have disappointed myself. I realize I want people to like me and agree with me.

When people do not agree with me, I feel rejected. This is mental illness. I have made lots of progress, but today I felt like I needed to write this. I haven’t been writing because my thoughts have been unpalatable for many, or so my head tells me.

I am NOT looking for “atta girls” I’m just talking.

If you feel like you need to comment, please be aware of how you comment (I fail here too.) Things like “have you tried” “you should” “but you have a beautiful life” “depression is a sign of spiritual depravation.” “do you know what caused this?”

If you made it this far, thank you for listening while I vent.

~RuthScribbles

Week 48, 2020 #52frames – Nature

This is my 48th submission for 2020.

Title: Over the Roof

Description: So I had the challenge backwards. I thought the main challenge was tripod, and extra credit was Nature. Ha

I put my canon on my tripod and went out back to the Southwest corner of the house. I wanted some photos of our trees trying their hardest to give us beautiful reds and yellow. I took photos in all different angles and the tripod was great because it held the camera steady and was able to twist looking up in a way my neck would not allow. The two trees in the front yard are oaks. The leaves directly overhead is of our ginormous crape myrtle.

I imported the photo into Snapseed and used the brush tool to brighten the colors. I left the tip of the house in for perspective.

Winter is coming!

#52frames_nature

~RuthScribbles